It's a mistake to confuse pity and love.

-_______-

Email.

Dengan secara tiba-tiba, saya teringin untuk berbalas e-mail. Hmm anyone? Hehee :)

ME!

Love the lyrics :)

IMY :S

I MISS YOU, KIDDO!

Shazleen Said. One word to define her, independent. Even though she act like a kid, but she is super independent! The one thing I admire the most. She sacrifice her time with her family to enable her to achieve her dreams.

I never even think that she will be one of my bestest friends. I knew her since pre-law in Kedah but I have only been given the chance to really know her last year. During LLB. We were roommates back then.

She is not fussy at all. I always bought her dinner. Anything would be fine. And since she dislikes roti so much, I taught her to eat roti with mushroom soup for breakfast/brunch. Sedap kan? Hahaa. When she is sick, she will sleep like forever! Hishh. No good lah.

I was a bit sad when she had to leave me after she completed her studies (seriously!). But then she managed to make a come back! Cool kan. Hehee. We did crazy fun stuff together. I really miss the moment we were together. Oh oh. And believe me, she is a great singer! Suara merdu (Anggota SUKSIS, please take note!). HAHAAA

Hmmm. Rindu nak karaoke, duduk dekat padang belakang Bluewave Hotel sampai subuh main truth-or-dare, watch movie, makan-makan, stalking, SUKSIS, etc. I just miss the good old days together.

If only I could turn back time .. :(

Wanita :)

Kaum feminin cakap “susah jadi wanita”, mereka telah digoda dan diperdaya oleh syaitan dan hawa nafsunya sendiri, seperti yang kita lihat dialog dibawah, bagaikan mempersoalkan ketentuan Allah terhadap mereka. Dengan kata lain yang agak kasar, Allah berat sebelah pada kaum wanita.

Keluhan remaja perempuan A:
“Aduh, situ tutup, sini tutup. Susah la gini. Apasal laki-laki mudah saja. Tak pakai baju pun takpe. Perempuan auratnya lagi banyak.”

Keluhan isteri A:
“Kenapa la kita para isteri ni nak keluar kena minta izin dari suami kita, padahal suami kita nak keluar kemana-mana pun tak bagitau kita takpe pulak.”

Keluhan remaja perempuan B:
“Jika kita ikut faraid dalam hal pusaka, rugilah kita. Sebab bahagian harta pusaka perempuan lagi sedikit berbanding harta yang anak lelaki dapat. Kami mahu keadilan!”

Keluhan isteri B:
“Kenapa Allah jadikan wanita mengandung dan rasa sakitnya nak melahirkan anak. Suami kita rileks saja? Masa buat anak carilah kita, masa nak beranak kita tanggung sendiri!”

Keluhan isteri C:
“Islam kata kita perempuan wajib taat pada suami, tapi ada Islam cakap suami perlu taat pada isterinya? Mana keadilan pada kaum hawa?”

Keluhan isteri D:
“Bila nak cerai je, suami yang boleh jatuhkan talak. Kenapa isteri tak bolek ceraikan suaminya? Kenapa?”

Keluhan remaja perempuan C:
“Wanita takleh nak beribadat macam lelaki, sebab bila kita ada haid dan nifas, takleh nak solat dan puasa. Ingat perempuan ni suka ke tak solat dan puasa?”.

Dan kemudian datanglah pertubuhan dan organisasi yang membela kaum wanita, dan menuntut hak samarata antara gender, mengekploitasi fahaman wanita yang terjejas akidahnya dek kerana disogok pertanyaan. Kaum lelaki pula cakap, “Ah, mujur aku ni lelaki!”

Tunggu..! Istigfarlah pada wanita yang ada perasaan seperti di atas. Mujur ada seorang lelaki yang bukanlah seorang ustaz namun amat yakin bahawa Allah itu Maha Adil. Dia tidak mampu menuturkan sabda Rasulullah s.a.w dan petikan dari ayat Al-Quran, namun dengan keimanan dan ilmu sedikit yang dia ada ,diolah sebaiknya untuk menjawab soalan-soalan melampau itu.

Lelaki beriman menjawab keluhan remaja perempuan A:
“Cik adik, Islam lah yang mengangkat aurat wanita. Benda yang mahal harganya akan dijaga dan dibelai serta disimpan ditempat yang teraman dan terbaik. Awak ada emas dan permata, adakah awak nak letak terdedah ditepi laluan lalu lalang atau disimpan dirumah agar tiada siapa melihat perhiasan itu? Ok, jika awak letakkan perhiasan tadi dikalangan orang, agaknya apa akan jadi dengan barang perhiasan tadi? Lelaki, yang utama hanyalah bawah pusat ke lutut tapi awak? Saya tidak dapat melihat kulit anda pun kecuali muka dan tangan! Awak tak mungkin akan terangsang nafsu tengok saya hanya berseluar pendek ke lutut kan? Tapi kalau sebaliknya, jangankan saya, tapi tok imam pun akan tercabut serbannya jika tengok awak pakai hanya seluar pendek!”

Lelaki beriman menjawab keluhan isteri A:
“Ok, isteri perlu taat pada suami. Jadi, lelaki apa? Suami perlu wajib taat juga kepada ibunya tiga kali lebih utama dari ayahnya, walaupun dia sudah berkeluarga. Isteri tidak perlu lagi, taatnya hanya pada suami. Kenapa awak perlu taat pada suami? Kerana suami kalian lah yang menanggung dosa yang kalian lakukan!”

Lelaki beriman menjawab keluhan remaja perempuan B:
“Betul ke wanita menerima warisan pusaka lagi sedikit daripada lelaki? Tapi kan, harta itu memang hak untuk wanita itu dan dia berhak lakukan apa saja yang dia mahu. Shh.. jangan kongsi dengan sape-sape walaupun suami. Tak kesian pada lelaki ke, dia perlu membahagikan harta pusaka itu kepada isteri dan anak-anaknya. Kalau isteri dia ramai, anak dia ramai, harta pulak secebis, tak merasa lah jawabnya!”

Lelaki beriman menjawab Keluhan isteri B:
“Tahniah la sebab awak dapat mengandung dan melahirkan. Setiap kali awak begitu, wanita itu didoakan oleh sekalian makhluk dan malaikat! Beruntungnya awak! Andaikan awak meninggal pula masa beranak tu, percayalah… itu mati syahid dan ganjarannya syurga. Ya, syurga menanti awak malah beranak 15 kali pun sihat sampai ke tua! Sebab tu tak ramai orang wanita meninggal masa melahirkan !”

Lelaki beriman menjawab Keluhan isteri C:
“Akhirat nanti, saya dan lelaki lain didunia ini akan diminta bertanggungjawab keatas empat jenis wanita. Siapa? Mereka ialah isteri saya, ibu saya, anak perempuan saya dan adik perempuan saya. Tahu maksudnya? Awak nanti di akhirat, awak akan dibantu oleh empat lelaki! Siapa mereka? Mereka ialah suami, ayah, adik atau abang malah anak lelaki awak!”

Lelaki beriman menjawab Keluhan remaja perempuan C:
“Nak beribadat macam lelaki? Ingat mudah ke nak dapat syurga? Sedarlah, awak sebagai wanita boleh masuk sebarang pintu syurga yang awak sukai. Ya, dah la syurga, ada pilihan pula hanya dengan empat cara. Apa itu? Solat lima waktu, berpuasa bulan Ramadhan, menjaga kehormatan dan tahu apa satu lagi? Taat pada suami awak. Itu saja asasnya!”

Lelaki beriman menjawab Keluhan isteri D:
“Saya, seorang lelaki wajib berjihad fisabilillah. Awak, seorang wanita jika taat akan suaminya,dan menunaikan tanggungjawabnya kepada Allah, maka awak akan turut menerima pahala setara seperti pahala orang pergi berjihad fisabilillah tanpa perlu mengangkat senjata!”

Lelaki beriman bertanya:
“Sebenarnya, apa lagi yang awak mahu, wahai kaum hawa?”

Namun, wanita-wanita tadi menangis dan salah seorangnya berkata;
“MasyaAllah, sayangnya Allah pada wanita, namun kami sendiri yang mengheret diri ke neraka yang mana ramainya kaum kami berbanding kaum lelaki!”

Demikianlah dialog wanita-wanita yang curiga itu dengan seorang lelaki biasa namun beriman.

Musuh Islam tidak akan berhenti melakukan segala upaya, sampai kita ikut dan tunduk kepada cara-cara dan peraturan yang dipromosikan dan diperjuangkan mereka.

Allah, yang menciptakan kita, maka sudah pasti Dia yang Maha Tahu pada manusia, sehingga segala hukumNya malah peraturanNya, tentulah yang terbaik bagi manusia dibandingkan dengan segala peraturan yang dicipta manusia.

Wahai lelaki, jagalah isterimu kerana dia perhiasan, pakaian dan ladangmu, sebagaimana Rasulullah s.a.w pernah mengajarkan agar kaum lelaki berbuat baik selalu (lembut) terhadap isteri anda sekalian.

Berbahagialah wahai para muslimah. Tunaikan dan menegakkan agamamu, nescaya syurga menanti...

Updates .

Okay. I saw many of my facebook friends updated their blogs. So I was like jealous! Hahahaa. I want to write but I just dont know where to start, how to put it in sentences.

Latest update.

1. I have completed my LL.B. Alhamdulillah. That phase of my life done with! Yeayyy :)

2. Now, I am currently reading in chambers at M. Raman & Associates somewhere in Seri Kembangan. I dont know. I dont think I am doing this with all my heart. I hope I can get through the 9 months without any pain or brain injuries. Haihhh. (It is actually a simple thing, I am the one who made it complicated!) -.-"

3. Only now I realised that my english is so damn POOR! I find it hard to communicate with others in English. (LOSER!)

4. I keep making mistakes. Shit! You are supposed to minimise your mistakes, and maximise your turnover Aqila. Hishhh :S

5. I'm hungry. As always :/ People are losing weight during Ramadhan but I cant stop putting on weight to myself! I cant stop eating. Darnnn (Again, LOSER! big time)

6. I am still creating myself!

I Hate Being Stuck In The Middle! -.-

ABOUT ME! (my piece of crap)

This is an essay about me that was sent to one of my lecturers. The story, the sentence, the grammar, it is like a primary school standard. I know! But I really have no idea what to tell others about me. There is nothing interesting about it :S



When I was young, I always thought about many ridiculous things. For instance, I thought that I came from the moon, there was a boogie man under my bed, and doctors were alien. However, mother told me that it was only my imagination and there were no such things in this real world. I started to think rationally and asked everyone around about that. I guess mother was right. There is no such thing in this real world. She also explained a few things about me. She said my name, Aqilah means intelligent and beautiful (it does not reflect me I think -_-"). I was born on 16th January and according to my star sign, the Capricorn is a hardworking, dependable, like to be active and love adventure, believe strongly in freedom and they do not change their mind easily (again it does not reflect me!).

In my early childhood, I like to play video games and my all time favourite is Mario Brothers. I like to watch cartoons too and this is one thing that has stayed with me throughout my life. As I grew into girlhood, I started to love outdoor activities like camping, bicycling, and running. I also like to play volleyball. I was one of the state players for Selangor and after I finished the primary school, I got an offer to continue my study at Bukit Jalil Sports School. However, my parents refused to send me there because they were afraid that I might ignore my study. I have to obey that even though I was a bit disappointed with that decision. Now that I am on the threshold of adulthood, my world has grown to include exciting friends and a new environment of life.

For many years, I have been interested in studying astronomy. My interest in pursuing this field stems from several factors which have affected me. First, I would like to study the mysteries of the universe. Astronomy is a science that seeks to explain everything that we observe in the universe, from the comets and planets in our own solar system to distant galaxies to the echoes of the Big Bang. Second, I am fascinated by physics. I believe, through the study of astronomy, I can effectively satisfy my curiosity in this field. However, there is no specific course for astronomy or astrophysics here in Malaysia. Therefore, my mother directed me to further study in law. Since mother knows best, I gave up on my interest and applied for Pre-Degree in Law at Mara University of Technology (UiTM).

I had never dreamt of becoming a lawyer in my entire life. This is due to the fact that I am not good at history, language and diplomacy. Besides that, I have this mind-setting that it is expensive to become a lawyer. The fees – if I did not further my study in UiTM, the attire, the books and journals, and the high cost in maintaining the practice. Other than that, my soft skills is weak and I can hardly deal with people effectively. However, during my study, I am developing this skill and the courses, pre-degree and Bachelor of Legal Studies (BLS) has taught me a lot. I am more confident to communicate with others; I am able to express my thoughts, and I am still developing the skills up until now. I manage to complete my pre-degree, and I have also graduated from UiTM’s Bachelor in Legal Studies (BLS) on time.

Besides study, in order to gain more experience and to enjoy my campus life, I joined this uniformed body called SUKSIS which stands for ‘Sukarelawan Polis Siswa Siswi’ for six semesters. I was commissioned as a voluntary police inspector on 19th June 2010 by the former Inspector General of Police, Tan Sri Musa Hassan. It was really one of the sweetest moment of mine.



Now, when I look at the picture of myself, I realize how much I have grown and changed, not only physically, but also mentally as a person in the last couple of years. The picture was taken on the day of my commission as a voluntary police inspector. Less than one month after this photograph was taken, I have registered myself at UiTM as a law student, without any idea of what to expect. I enrolled my first semester of Bachelor of Laws (LL.B) as an innocent one. I am one of the partners of Nuraini Roslan & Associates from group G. I was a bit scared of this course before because I heard the rumours that this course is so tough that you do not even have time for your own self. Now that I have entered the second semester, the focuses in my life have changed dramatically. I think I am able to manage my time wisely and I am mentally prepared.

At first, before I enrol this course, I expected that this course is just the same as BLS. However, I was wrong. After the classes began, the first thing I get acquainted with is not actually the legal principles, but more of the rules of daily practice. Simple matters like filing documents in court, effecting service of documents and drafting, all becomes part of the routine. I do not think this is taught at other law schools at other local universities in Malaysia. What else could I ask for? I just hope that I will complete this course with flying colours and the future is yet to be decided.

As the college experience approaches, I am still the same person, only modified to better maximize my talents. Although I still have some time to play volleyball and see movies, perhaps one of the few similarities between this photograph and me now is my smile.

Down.

I really need a shoulder to cry on at this very moment :(

Oh God, please send someone to me. Pretty please :((

I want my own life back! I want it back!

Be strong Aqila. Please. Be strong!

And remember Aqila, YOU ARE NEVER ONE OF THEM. NEVER.

Paintball, I want MORE! :DD

SUKSIS oh SUKSIS :)

Few weeks back, I was attending SUKSIS training for Majlis Perbarisan Tamat Latihan & Penyampaian Sijil Kor SUKSIS Semalaysia 2010. It was held in UM and the training was for 2 weeks.

First week, latihan kawad best tapi tak laratlah sebab asyik kena dengar SM Said(oh harap-harap SM tak baca hahaa) membebel. Dah la dalam keadaan statik semasa senang diri, kena jemur tengah panas lagi sampai 2 jam. Aduhai, memanglah sangat meletihkan, menghitamlegamkan, dan memanaskan hati ini! Nasib baik mental tak tercalar. Haih. Second week, Tuan Rahman telah mengadakan rampasan kuasa. And time ni barulah kami sedar kenapa UiTM dibenci. Hahaa. But who cares? Kan kan. I am so proud to part of UiTM! :) Second week dah terasa macam sekejap je. Aktiviti paling menarik minggu ini ialah poco-poco. It was so much fun doing it! :DD

19th June 2010 - Majlis Perbarisan Tamat Latihan & Penyampaian Sijil Kor SUKSIS Semalaysia 2010.

The event started at 0715 am. It was okay and thank God ucapan VC UM dan Raja Dr. Nazrin kejap je. Kalau tak, confirm ramai yang pengsan. Hahaa. Tapi masa habis perbarisan, tiba-tiba je keluar air mata. We have made it! Dengan jayanya! Sangat memuaskan hati :) Ada juga senior Skuad 3 yang datang tengok kami. Suka~~ Sebab Skuad 4 memang dah dimanjakan oleh Skuad 3. Hahahaaa :PP Oh oh. I am so in love dengan Pancaragam PDRM. Mereka sangat attractive! Hahahaa :D

Then, kena rush pegi dewan pula untuk penyampaian sijil. Tukar tudung, stokin, kasut dalam bas. Memang sangat tercemarlah udara dalam bas tu. Hahaa. Sorry encik driver bas. Majlis ni macam boring sikitlah (sebab saya tidak suka majlis formal). Lepas settle majlis dalam dewan, kami terus balik kolej. And unfortunately, makanan untuk lunch telah dikebas oleh orang-orang yang tidak bertanggungjawab. Haish. Lapar kot! Hm redha je laa.

Next, kami ada majlis bersama jurulatih. Kami masuk baris, buat perlahan jalan sambil nyanyi lagu bertemu dan berpisah. Sangat touching okay! Memang tak boleh tahan dah air mata ni. Lepas tu kena jumpa jurulatih sorang-sorang. Time ni lagi la sedih! Jurulatih pun speechless. They love us so much, and we love them more! :\

Malam, kami ada dinner. Tak berapa menariklah. Semua pon tak sabar nak balik kolej. Lepas je Tan Sri Musa Hassan balik, kami pon terus berlari-lari naik bas. Boring kot. Hahaaa. Tapi malam tu budak lelaki dah beli kek utk jurulatih. So malam tu ada lagi la aktiviti dengan jurulatih. Kami nyanyi lagu memori tercipta. And again, menyentuh perasaan juga. Sedih. We are just like one big loving family. Masa makan kek tu, mereka siap main baling-baling krim la pulak. Cis. nasib baik sempat menyelamatkan diri. Ish ishh.

So, overall, 2 weeks in UM did give quite a big impact to us. We spent most of the time together. We took care of each other, had our meal together, practice together, share the laugh and tears all together. We just love each other. This will be my most precious memories ever and hopefully our friendship will last forever. Ameen.

And that was the last chapter of Skuad 4 :(



Our guardian angels hahaa :D

Daddy's (little) girl :)

I do not know why but suddenly I want to re-post my entry about my hero. He is very kind-hearted even though his face does not look so friendly. He does not talk too much but he has his own perspectives. He loves maths and puzzles yet he is a very simple person. He is the only man in me, and it will always be.

He treated me as an adult but he always knew that I am still his little girl.

He hold me high off the ground where the sunlight sings.

He will be the deep music that tells me all is right when I awake frantic with the terrors of the night.

He will be the great mountain that rises in my heart and shows me how I might get home when all else falls apart.

He gives me the love that is my sea and air, so diving deep or soaring high, I will always find him there.

I will never ever be ready to be without him.. God, please do hear me!

Bored to the max! :S

Hi. I am bored like hell. I should be studying right now. Association Law II. My next paper will be on Wednesday. But I dont feel like doing so. Oh spirit, please come to me! :\

Last Saturday, my elder sister had just got engaged with her boyfriend, Yusni. Since both of them are residing in Dublin at the moment, so this event was done through webcam. It is kinda cool to me. The best part is, it was also a big family gathering where as usual, the mumsies will be at the kitchen, gossiping. The daddies will be at the porch, smoking. Us, will be at the hall doing stupid stuffs. And the small soldiers will be everywhere. This will only happens during hari raya. So that was a bonus and it was fun! :)

I also have a long conversation with Kak Long that day. There are many things that need to be done before her wedding on this October. I hope I can help it during this semester break.

Semester break. I am thinking of doing attachment again, but I will not be able to make it full for a month. I have camping on May 18th at Gunung Berembun, Terengganu. Wahh, dah lama tak ber-campping! Seronok :D However, this time the roommates will not be joining because they will do their attachments. Haih. I just cannot imagine. Hopefully it will be okay. After camping, there will be a Pulau Duyung homecoming programme. Darn. Seganlah! Tak nak pergi boleh tak? Tapi nak mencandat sutun je. Hehee. Then, on June 9th, we will have our two weeks training for passing out. Yeay! Bertambahlah gelap. Hahaa.

Oh. I need to jog. Like seriously! Sudah buncitlah. Oh nooo~~ Will arrange the schedule later, even though it is an established fact that AQILA + SCHEDULE = NEVER WORK! Hehee :DD Gambatte kudasai!

And I am so~ in love with this! crack, crack, crack, crack :DD

You make me SICK! blurghhhh

Let the music heal your soul, Aqila :(

I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than this broken heart.

I am no longer one of you.

I am all alone.

God, please always be with me.

And, thanks for making me a fighter!

Big girls dont cry, Aqila! So be one.

Time will heal.

Quick Updates.

I want to write but I dont have time. I have the idea but I dont know how to elaborate it. Guess I have to find the mood first, or so-called "ilham". Hehee. Well, this is just a quick update.

- Exam is like just around the corner. Janganlah malas Aqila! Please~ -_-

- I have a mission that needs to be accomplished. It does not have any deadline but lets do it as soon as practicable. Hahaaa

- Dinner oh dinner :S

- Camping at Gunung Berembun, Kuala Terengganu. This is good. Later after that, we will be sent back to keluarga angkat at Pulau Duyung for a few days. That is not good! Haih.

- Pyjama party. Lets go shopping for the costume! Hahahaa :DD

- Oh. I admire someone. But I dont think he ever glanced at me. But that is still okay I guess. Hehee :D

- Malas nak balik Shah Alam. Helpppp~

Have to go now. Too much things to do in soooo~~ little time :\

Chased .

Last night was the second time I had been chased by strangers on the road. Scary! Oh janganlah kejar saya ketika sedang memandu. And making any eye contact. Paling tak sukalah! Lets tinted the windows Aqila. Tapi takut nak cakap kat abah. Confirm kena bebel sebab sendiri yang cari pasal balik malam-malam kan. *I just love driving alone, and with good musics* Hehee. Wait till the suitable time comes lah kot. Haih.

Oh oh. I find this very cute! :D



Where is my Mr. Right? :PP

Almost!

Yesterday I went to IPK Selangor to “celebrate” Hari Polis Ke-203 with Huda and Zuraida with other juniors. We were the only seniors who joined this event. Felt a bit like an alien. Well, we, the seniors have crisis with the juniors. Okay that is another story. Hehe. By the way, they promised to gather at the bus stop at 0630 am sharp. Tapi janji melayulah kan. We were the first ones to come. Hish. When they came, I just looked at them without any expression on my face. Sorry I am never in the mood to smile at you guys. And as I mentioned before, it takes time :)

Okayyy back to the story. We arrived at the IPK Selangor around 0700 am. As usual, bila berjalan dalam baris, semua polis pun nak bising-bising suruh jalan betul-betul, jangan bercakap masa dalam baris. Haish. Like whatever~ The event started at 0800 am. So we were like mencuci mata *drooooooolsss* :P~ Hahaa. Well, I am always in love with the kawalan kehormatan. It is art! I wish I could do the perfect moves like them, especially the move of ‘rusuk senjata’. Mesti fail (tapi memang tak turun training pun kan hahaa). Suddenly, we saw a guy and he is super duper hot! OMG! Superb okay~ We were all looking at him. Sgt obvious kot! Hahaa. Dah 3 kali pergi sambut Hari Polis tapi tak pernah pun nampak dia. This is the first time. But then Encik Zul told us that that guy is menantu Tuan Rahman. Damn! *berkecai* Tak kisahlah kalau dia menantu sesiapa pun tapi kenapa menantu Tuan Rahman? We dont like him. Ish.

Then, during perbarisan, this is my first time in 3 years time that I was almost fainted! Tak Pernah-pernah kot. Hahaa. This is the outcome for not having any meal yesterday and in the morning. Wuwwuwuwu~ And only now I know how does it feels when you are about to collapse. At first, I was like yawning for almost hundred times. This is happening when I feel like I want to puke. Blurghh. The throat rasa payau-pahit and I cannot hear anything from my right ear. I was sweating from top to toe. Oh that was scary! Tapi memang takkan keluar baris. Bertahan selagi boleh! Dan disebabkan Encik Zul dah macam mencabar ketahanan mental so memang takkan keluar barislah kan. Guess what, I made it. Till the end! Cool eh~ ;)

We went for breakfast and took some pictures after that. So, moral of the story, for this upcoming passing out on June 2010, dont ever skip any meal, have at least a glass of water that early morning, kena paksa buang air pagi-pagi. Hahaa. That is what Encik Khalid told me. Overall, it was okey but last year's event is more happening :)

Selamat Hari Polis Ke-203. Keep up the good work! :)

First impression.

Recently I just realised that I was wrong in judging people. But I believe in my first impression towards strangers. If I felt uneasy right from the beginning of our first meeting, then for sure I will not be able to like him/her to be a friend of mine. So dont blame me. But sooner or later it will be okay. It takes time. Kan? Well, I am just ego. Hahaa.

I am so sorry I am still judging the book by its cover :D

Curiosity.

I dont think it is wrong to try new things. Well it is not about being too liberal, too broad-minded or terlalu kebaratan. It is definitely not! I am just eager to try things. Once is enough. At least I know what others dont. And it is all about having fun. But it does not even touch about halal and haram matters. Too far. What is so wrong about it? Explain. I just cant accept it since you did not state any reason for against it.

If I did not do anything wrong, it is hard for me to accept it as a mistake.

Bukan meninggi diri, but I still can differentiate between right and wrong.

I am so sorry for being the wild one. Again, I am sorry! :\