Down.

I really need a shoulder to cry on at this very moment :(

Oh God, please send someone to me. Pretty please :((

I want my own life back! I want it back!

Be strong Aqila. Please. Be strong!

And remember Aqila, YOU ARE NEVER ONE OF THEM. NEVER.

Paintball, I want MORE! :DD

SUKSIS oh SUKSIS :)

Few weeks back, I was attending SUKSIS training for Majlis Perbarisan Tamat Latihan & Penyampaian Sijil Kor SUKSIS Semalaysia 2010. It was held in UM and the training was for 2 weeks.

First week, latihan kawad best tapi tak laratlah sebab asyik kena dengar SM Said(oh harap-harap SM tak baca hahaa) membebel. Dah la dalam keadaan statik semasa senang diri, kena jemur tengah panas lagi sampai 2 jam. Aduhai, memanglah sangat meletihkan, menghitamlegamkan, dan memanaskan hati ini! Nasib baik mental tak tercalar. Haih. Second week, Tuan Rahman telah mengadakan rampasan kuasa. And time ni barulah kami sedar kenapa UiTM dibenci. Hahaa. But who cares? Kan kan. I am so proud to part of UiTM! :) Second week dah terasa macam sekejap je. Aktiviti paling menarik minggu ini ialah poco-poco. It was so much fun doing it! :DD

19th June 2010 - Majlis Perbarisan Tamat Latihan & Penyampaian Sijil Kor SUKSIS Semalaysia 2010.

The event started at 0715 am. It was okay and thank God ucapan VC UM dan Raja Dr. Nazrin kejap je. Kalau tak, confirm ramai yang pengsan. Hahaa. Tapi masa habis perbarisan, tiba-tiba je keluar air mata. We have made it! Dengan jayanya! Sangat memuaskan hati :) Ada juga senior Skuad 3 yang datang tengok kami. Suka~~ Sebab Skuad 4 memang dah dimanjakan oleh Skuad 3. Hahahaaa :PP Oh oh. I am so in love dengan Pancaragam PDRM. Mereka sangat attractive! Hahahaa :D

Then, kena rush pegi dewan pula untuk penyampaian sijil. Tukar tudung, stokin, kasut dalam bas. Memang sangat tercemarlah udara dalam bas tu. Hahaa. Sorry encik driver bas. Majlis ni macam boring sikitlah (sebab saya tidak suka majlis formal). Lepas settle majlis dalam dewan, kami terus balik kolej. And unfortunately, makanan untuk lunch telah dikebas oleh orang-orang yang tidak bertanggungjawab. Haish. Lapar kot! Hm redha je laa.

Next, kami ada majlis bersama jurulatih. Kami masuk baris, buat perlahan jalan sambil nyanyi lagu bertemu dan berpisah. Sangat touching okay! Memang tak boleh tahan dah air mata ni. Lepas tu kena jumpa jurulatih sorang-sorang. Time ni lagi la sedih! Jurulatih pun speechless. They love us so much, and we love them more! :\

Malam, kami ada dinner. Tak berapa menariklah. Semua pon tak sabar nak balik kolej. Lepas je Tan Sri Musa Hassan balik, kami pon terus berlari-lari naik bas. Boring kot. Hahaaa. Tapi malam tu budak lelaki dah beli kek utk jurulatih. So malam tu ada lagi la aktiviti dengan jurulatih. Kami nyanyi lagu memori tercipta. And again, menyentuh perasaan juga. Sedih. We are just like one big loving family. Masa makan kek tu, mereka siap main baling-baling krim la pulak. Cis. nasib baik sempat menyelamatkan diri. Ish ishh.

So, overall, 2 weeks in UM did give quite a big impact to us. We spent most of the time together. We took care of each other, had our meal together, practice together, share the laugh and tears all together. We just love each other. This will be my most precious memories ever and hopefully our friendship will last forever. Ameen.

And that was the last chapter of Skuad 4 :(



Our guardian angels hahaa :D

Daddy's (little) girl :)

I do not know why but suddenly I want to re-post my entry about my hero. He is very kind-hearted even though his face does not look so friendly. He does not talk too much but he has his own perspectives. He loves maths and puzzles yet he is a very simple person. He is the only man in me, and it will always be.

He treated me as an adult but he always knew that I am still his little girl.

He hold me high off the ground where the sunlight sings.

He will be the deep music that tells me all is right when I awake frantic with the terrors of the night.

He will be the great mountain that rises in my heart and shows me how I might get home when all else falls apart.

He gives me the love that is my sea and air, so diving deep or soaring high, I will always find him there.

I will never ever be ready to be without him.. God, please do hear me!

Bored to the max! :S

Hi. I am bored like hell. I should be studying right now. Association Law II. My next paper will be on Wednesday. But I dont feel like doing so. Oh spirit, please come to me! :\

Last Saturday, my elder sister had just got engaged with her boyfriend, Yusni. Since both of them are residing in Dublin at the moment, so this event was done through webcam. It is kinda cool to me. The best part is, it was also a big family gathering where as usual, the mumsies will be at the kitchen, gossiping. The daddies will be at the porch, smoking. Us, will be at the hall doing stupid stuffs. And the small soldiers will be everywhere. This will only happens during hari raya. So that was a bonus and it was fun! :)

I also have a long conversation with Kak Long that day. There are many things that need to be done before her wedding on this October. I hope I can help it during this semester break.

Semester break. I am thinking of doing attachment again, but I will not be able to make it full for a month. I have camping on May 18th at Gunung Berembun, Terengganu. Wahh, dah lama tak ber-campping! Seronok :D However, this time the roommates will not be joining because they will do their attachments. Haih. I just cannot imagine. Hopefully it will be okay. After camping, there will be a Pulau Duyung homecoming programme. Darn. Seganlah! Tak nak pergi boleh tak? Tapi nak mencandat sutun je. Hehee. Then, on June 9th, we will have our two weeks training for passing out. Yeay! Bertambahlah gelap. Hahaa.

Oh. I need to jog. Like seriously! Sudah buncitlah. Oh nooo~~ Will arrange the schedule later, even though it is an established fact that AQILA + SCHEDULE = NEVER WORK! Hehee :DD Gambatte kudasai!

And I am so~ in love with this! crack, crack, crack, crack :DD

You make me SICK! blurghhhh

Let the music heal your soul, Aqila :(

I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than this broken heart.

I am no longer one of you.

I am all alone.

God, please always be with me.

And, thanks for making me a fighter!

Big girls dont cry, Aqila! So be one.

Time will heal.

Quick Updates.

I want to write but I dont have time. I have the idea but I dont know how to elaborate it. Guess I have to find the mood first, or so-called "ilham". Hehee. Well, this is just a quick update.

- Exam is like just around the corner. Janganlah malas Aqila! Please~ -_-

- I have a mission that needs to be accomplished. It does not have any deadline but lets do it as soon as practicable. Hahaaa

- Dinner oh dinner :S

- Camping at Gunung Berembun, Kuala Terengganu. This is good. Later after that, we will be sent back to keluarga angkat at Pulau Duyung for a few days. That is not good! Haih.

- Pyjama party. Lets go shopping for the costume! Hahahaa :DD

- Oh. I admire someone. But I dont think he ever glanced at me. But that is still okay I guess. Hehee :D

- Malas nak balik Shah Alam. Helpppp~

Have to go now. Too much things to do in soooo~~ little time :\

Chased .

Last night was the second time I had been chased by strangers on the road. Scary! Oh janganlah kejar saya ketika sedang memandu. And making any eye contact. Paling tak sukalah! Lets tinted the windows Aqila. Tapi takut nak cakap kat abah. Confirm kena bebel sebab sendiri yang cari pasal balik malam-malam kan. *I just love driving alone, and with good musics* Hehee. Wait till the suitable time comes lah kot. Haih.

Oh oh. I find this very cute! :D



Where is my Mr. Right? :PP

Almost!

Yesterday I went to IPK Selangor to “celebrate” Hari Polis Ke-203 with Huda and Zuraida with other juniors. We were the only seniors who joined this event. Felt a bit like an alien. Well, we, the seniors have crisis with the juniors. Okay that is another story. Hehe. By the way, they promised to gather at the bus stop at 0630 am sharp. Tapi janji melayulah kan. We were the first ones to come. Hish. When they came, I just looked at them without any expression on my face. Sorry I am never in the mood to smile at you guys. And as I mentioned before, it takes time :)

Okayyy back to the story. We arrived at the IPK Selangor around 0700 am. As usual, bila berjalan dalam baris, semua polis pun nak bising-bising suruh jalan betul-betul, jangan bercakap masa dalam baris. Haish. Like whatever~ The event started at 0800 am. So we were like mencuci mata *drooooooolsss* :P~ Hahaa. Well, I am always in love with the kawalan kehormatan. It is art! I wish I could do the perfect moves like them, especially the move of ‘rusuk senjata’. Mesti fail (tapi memang tak turun training pun kan hahaa). Suddenly, we saw a guy and he is super duper hot! OMG! Superb okay~ We were all looking at him. Sgt obvious kot! Hahaa. Dah 3 kali pergi sambut Hari Polis tapi tak pernah pun nampak dia. This is the first time. But then Encik Zul told us that that guy is menantu Tuan Rahman. Damn! *berkecai* Tak kisahlah kalau dia menantu sesiapa pun tapi kenapa menantu Tuan Rahman? We dont like him. Ish.

Then, during perbarisan, this is my first time in 3 years time that I was almost fainted! Tak Pernah-pernah kot. Hahaa. This is the outcome for not having any meal yesterday and in the morning. Wuwwuwuwu~ And only now I know how does it feels when you are about to collapse. At first, I was like yawning for almost hundred times. This is happening when I feel like I want to puke. Blurghh. The throat rasa payau-pahit and I cannot hear anything from my right ear. I was sweating from top to toe. Oh that was scary! Tapi memang takkan keluar baris. Bertahan selagi boleh! Dan disebabkan Encik Zul dah macam mencabar ketahanan mental so memang takkan keluar barislah kan. Guess what, I made it. Till the end! Cool eh~ ;)

We went for breakfast and took some pictures after that. So, moral of the story, for this upcoming passing out on June 2010, dont ever skip any meal, have at least a glass of water that early morning, kena paksa buang air pagi-pagi. Hahaa. That is what Encik Khalid told me. Overall, it was okey but last year's event is more happening :)

Selamat Hari Polis Ke-203. Keep up the good work! :)

First impression.

Recently I just realised that I was wrong in judging people. But I believe in my first impression towards strangers. If I felt uneasy right from the beginning of our first meeting, then for sure I will not be able to like him/her to be a friend of mine. So dont blame me. But sooner or later it will be okay. It takes time. Kan? Well, I am just ego. Hahaa.

I am so sorry I am still judging the book by its cover :D

Curiosity.

I dont think it is wrong to try new things. Well it is not about being too liberal, too broad-minded or terlalu kebaratan. It is definitely not! I am just eager to try things. Once is enough. At least I know what others dont. And it is all about having fun. But it does not even touch about halal and haram matters. Too far. What is so wrong about it? Explain. I just cant accept it since you did not state any reason for against it.

If I did not do anything wrong, it is hard for me to accept it as a mistake.

Bukan meninggi diri, but I still can differentiate between right and wrong.

I am so sorry for being the wild one. Again, I am sorry! :\

Aqila Loves Archery! :D

Baguslah .

Today, I skip all my classes. Hahaa. I was thinking of coming back home but then I have a lot of work to do. Oh. And I have volleyball training this evening. Volleyball training? Haih. Malasnya! :S

Hm semuanya malas. Baguslah -_-


Saya sudah gemuklah. Aduhai. Ehh. Tapi mana pernah kurus pun! Hahaahahaa.

** Some random facts:

1. I really want to go for jogging and swimming, but I just dont have the suitable time. (relevant excuse kan?) :DD

2. Penang, wait for me!(bila boleh pergi ni? hmmm) Nak makan roti cicah sup dekat sana. Sedap~~ :D

3. Missing the cousins. Lama dah tak pergi Kemaman. Nak jalan-jalan. Nak Haipeng. Nak pantai. Nak angin bayu! Hahahhahaaa :p

4. Currently re-gaining the spirit to get active back in all activities in SUKSIS.

5. So in love with foods~ Tolonglah jangan makan banyak-banyak. Aaaaaaaaaa~ :S

6. A tea lover :)

7. English oh english. Hm bila boleh fluent cakap english ni? :|

8. Not a trend-setter. I suck at fashion. Jangan tiru macam saya. Rimas.

9. Sleepyhead. Haih.

From the justification above, it can be concluded that, aqila is currently kuat makan + asyik tidur + malas = semakin comel.

Ohh. Again, baguslah! :\

Silly me!

Today, I received an email. An email that promises an unexpected fortune!

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Well, it is a scam. Hahaa.

Thank you :)

I did not expect things to turn out this way.

But, all I can say is thank you for every single thing you have done to me.

I wish you the best in life! :)

And, thanks for making me a fighter ;)

Confused.

Lately, I am just getting a lot more unsure about myself. Well, it is may be because of the external pressure (even though I am not sure of it).

Basically, it is about my study. It is like the whole thing that might and will happen in future depends upon it. This semester will be my last semester doing BLS. I really hope I pass all the papers with flying colours, especially Jurisprudence (dah sebulan kot ponteng kelas - so sorry Pak Brahim!). Oh oh. The main issue here is that should I further my study in LLB, or do masters, or working, or stay with eldest sister (this one is optional hehee).

I just cannot make up my mind. Yet.

Besides that, I also have no idea what should I do for living after finishing study. Darn! I do have a few aims but the confidence level to achieve it is very very low. I have no general knowledge (obviously because I hate reading), I am not good at interacting with people, and physical fitness, oh noooo!

Hm study sampai tua la kalau macam ni :DD

Ehh wait. Why do I sound so pathetic? Oh. This is due to the modul and workshop that I have attended during weekends. And there will be another modul this Tuesday. From 0730 am till 1830 pm. God, this is torturing me! Please do not spoil my Saturday anymore. And I prefer to go to class rather than to go to all those ridiculous moduls. And I have not go for kawad senjata for 3 weeks. How I really miss that M16. Like seriously! :D

Enough is enough.

Oh. And I just want to remind you, I am just a plain ordinary girl. Just an ordinary girl :)

Start blogging!

At last, I have restored my password. Haish. Password pun boleh lupa.

Oh! Dah bersawanglah. Hehe. Will update it later :)

And by the way, this is the new look! :D





Not much difference. But I'm getting more chubbier day by day. Hish.